Are My Feelings As A Mother Normal?

are my feelings as a mother normal

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‘Are my feelings as a mother normal?’ This is a question I’ve been asking myself basically since the day the twiglets were born. I felt utterly and completely overwhelmed in those first few weeks, even months, and constantly found myself wondering if I should be feeling this way. And even now, with two toddlers, I’m still asking the same thing…

are my feelings as a mother normal

My feelings as a new mother

In the very early days, when we first brought our tiny bundles home, the midwives and health visitor were keeping a very close eye on me as they were a bit concerned about my emotional state. I talked in previous blog posts about how I was pretty traumatised by their birth. (You can read my birth story here and here).

And the problem with this is that you have no time whatsoever to make sense of it and come to terms with it. You’re immediately thrust into the toughest job of your life, with more responsibility than you’ve ever dealt with before.

Not to mention the fact that my undercarriage was in tatters! And I was desperately and futilely attempting to produce milk and get even one baby to stay on a tit for longer than five seconds! Plus I was a ball of raging hormones. When you put it like that, then maybe the fact that I could barely get a sentence out without bursting into tears was normal? I still don’t know and I don’t think I ever will…

are my feelings as a mother normal

Are my feelings normal now?

Recently I have found myself asking this same question again… Are my feelings as a mother normal?

And yet again, I just don’t know. I know that I’ve not been feeling quite like myself, which is about the vaguest way of putting it. But it’s a feeling that’s so hard to describe… Just feeling ‘not quite right’ but when you can’t put your finger on exactly what’s wrong.

Am I just sleep deprived?

I do know that I feel very very tired and I wonder if that’s the whole crux of it. I’m not sure if the exhaustion has got worse or if I’ve just begun to notice it more. I’ve actually been getting more decent nights lately so would expect to be feeling more awake and alert!

As it is, sometimes I get overcome by a wave of exhaustion which makes me feel achy all over and, if we’re out walking or something, almost dizzy. If we’re at home, I sometimes can’t help but to just go to sleep for a bit. Obviously knowing the twigs are safely contained in the living room, watching tv or something. But it’s not exactly ideal to say the least and just seems more extreme than ever. Especially considering there was a time when I used to be up about 20 times in the night with them and don’t remember feeling quite like this then!

Or is there a physical explanation?

I have wondered if there could be a physical reason such as low iron or B12. I’ve had problems with both of these in the past,, particularly with poor absorption of B12. So maybe something as simple as that could explain why I’m feeling this way 🤔

Is it just because twin toddlers are hard work?

But as well as having these waves of exhaustion, I’ve been feeling like my patience is at an all-time low and I’m on such a short fuse. Again, is this just normal?

Two-year old twins would test anyone’s patience and can be incredibly frustrating. Now that they don’t always nap, it definitely feels very relentless which I know I’m struggling with. Despite them being at nursery for two days a week. I feel like I’m just not being anything like the parent I want to be.

Feeling up and down

I believe in the ideas of gentle parenting and talking to children at their level etc. Yet I find myself constantly snapping and shouting and even losing my temper so much more than I feel I should. And I just can’t seem to control it. It scares me how angry I sometimes feel. Like I know in my heart of hearts I would never do anything to hurt them. But nevertheless it does genuinely scare me when I feel that loss of control over my emotions.

And it seems so ridiculous! Like, they’re two for Christ’s sake, I mean what can they really be doing that’s so bad?? But, as I’m sure any parent of a toddler or two will know, these tiny humans can be unbelievably astute at knowing which buttons to press. And they’ll do so tirelessly just for sh*ts and gigs 😭 (You can read my post here about attempting to discipline toddlers and how bloody impossible it is!)

And of course, getting angry is inevitably followed by massive guilt. Often tears too, and just feeling really low and crap.

But then there are times when the twiglets are behaving nicely. Or being sweet to each other or to me. Or they say something really lovely. And I just feel overwhelmed by love for them, really happy and so aware of how lucky I am.

It just feels a bit at the moment that there’s no real middle ground. It’s like one extreme or the other. I know that it’s pretty normal for parenting to feel up and down but to what extent?

Should I talk to someone about my feelings?

Anyway, I keep wondering whether I should maybe talk to someone, you know, professional and shiz, like a GP. But I’m torn.

On one hand I worry they’ll just laugh me out the room and call me a timewaster for whinging that I’m tired when I have two-year old twins! 🙈 (I do know that’s not quuuite what would happen 🙊🤣) And on the other, I worry that if I start admitting I’m struggling, someone will see through me. They’ll realise I’m a fraud and not actually capable of looking after my bubbas. And then they’ll like, take them away or something… (Yes I’m fully aware of how crazy that sounds! 🙈)

Only time will tell

So I think I will start by taking some vitamin supplements and see if that makes any difference. Hopefully there’s a simple explanation like a vitamin deficiency. Or maybe it’s just a random period of feeling down. Or maybe it’s just a normal way to feel when you have two little ones going through a challenging stage of development and you’ve been sleep-deprived for nearly three years…

Who the hell knows? I guess only time will tell. As always when I start opening up about any struggles or problems I might have, I feel horrendously guilty for moaning. There are so so many people out there, other mums I follow on Instagram etc, who are going through real sh*tty sh*t stuff in their lives right now. So it feels ridiculous and quite self-indulgent for me to be whinging that I feel tired and a bit weird 🙈

We should talk about our feelings

But I always remind myself that if everyone thought like that, no-one would ever talk about their feelings and therefore be able to deal with them, as there’s always going to be someone going through something worse. Whatever the reasons, our feelings are all important and valid and we absolutely should talk about them. (That’s what I tell myself when I’m being a whiny cow anyway 🙈🤣)

Have you ever wondered if your feelings as a mother are normal? And what, if anything, helped you to feel more yourself? I’d love to hear from you 😊

And if you are concerned about the way you’re feeling, please please do talk to someone. Whether it’s a friend, family member or your GP. Just please do share it with someone.

Thanks so much for reading! Til next time,

Hannah xx

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  1. Oh wow this is very relatable! Recently I’ve been feeling so tired it’s unreal, every afternoon I fight with myself to try and keep my eyes open, coffee doesn’t help.
    My patience has been at an all time low and I am constantly irritable. I have no energy for anything and my memory has been bloody terrible, amongst some other symptoms, I finally got a diagnosis and it turns out I actually have an underactive thyroid, but this was only tested for when I started putting on weight quite rapidly, previously I’d been put on antidepressants to try and help.
    If you’re still feeling bad despite taking supplements then go and see your GP and ask for bloods to be done, it doesn’t always have to be related to mental health and could actually be something physical, as you already know because of your history with deficiencies.
    I really hope you see an improvement and start to feel better soon. Being a parent is exhausting enough, never mind having two to look after and feeling crappy! xx

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