The day after I left my teaching job at the beginning of the year, I felt like I’d been hit by a bus. I think it was a combination of things – relief, alllll the emotions, exhaustion, sleep deprivation, all the anxiety I’d been feeling… I think it all just caught up with me a bit.
Anyway, I had a shower in an attempt to make myself feel slightly more human. Ignoring the fact that I could hear the twiglets next door destroying their bedroom and each other, I decided to take the extra 5 minutes in the shower to shave my legs. I knew it would make me feel that bit… nicer, you know? As I did, I thought ‘ooh I’m doing some self care!’ Then I quickly checked myself and thought ‘no – you’re shaving your legs because you resemble a yeti and could probably weave an entire rug out of your leg hair you tit!’ 🙈
Hello! I feel like it’s been a little while since I last posted… Or maybe it’s just because the past week has been manic! But anyway I just felt like writing a little life update in case anyone is interested!
I’ve been feeling a bit lost recently – well, since the twiglets started school really. I haven’t been able to put my finger on exactly why. It’s like there’s something niggling at the back of my mind but I can’t quite manage to bring it to the forefront so I can work out what it actually is. The other evening I was feeling this way and suddenly found myself saying to the husband: ‘There’s just no point to me anymore.’ I didn’t even really know what I meant – it just came out.
If you know me, you may well know that I am not really one for beauty treatments as a rule. I LOVE a massage (though I rarely have them), I get my nails done every so often, but that’s about it. So when a lovely local salon, Nouvelles, got in touch to offer me an LVL lash lift, I felt a bit out of my comfort zone. I mean I’ve never even had my eyebrows done! But it was such a fab opportunity that I jumped at the chance.
Since I became a parent to twins, there have been so many times when the kindness of strangers has quite literally made my day. Just one small act of kindness can have a much bigger impact than you might realise.
You may remember that not so long ago, I was working as a part-time class teacher in a local primary school. I wrote a post previously all about the reasons why I left that job after just six months (read it here if you fancy). For the last few months I’ve been desperately trying to decide what to do workwise once the twiglets start school in September. I’ve finally decided to have a go at supply teaching rather than another class teacher role, so I just thought I’d share my reasons for this decision 😊 Just in case anyone’s interested 😜
Quite a while ago I wrote a post called ‘Mum Tum: Lose It or Love it’ (read it here). It was about how, at that time, I wasn’t hugely bothered about my big post-pregnancy jelly belly. I wouldn’t say I was feeling super body positive or anything, but certainly not unhappy enough to do anything about it. But while on holiday last week, I realised that something had changed.
I’m currently sat in Costa with a coconut latte and a toastie, enjoying a rare couple of hours of peace and quiet. It’s half term and the twiglets are at a Playball camp for the morning. I’m trying to relax and appreciate the time to myself but I can’t help but think about the fraught, stressful few hours we had before we left the house earlier…
This post is probably going to be a bit of a ramble so please bear with me!
So I’ve quit my job! 😱 I actually resigned back in November but couldn’t really say anything until now as the children I teach (and their parents) didn’t know. I have pretty mixed feelings about it to be honest – on one hand, I feel hugely relieved as I wasn’t happy, but on the other, I feel a bit of a failure and like I’ve given up. Throw in a huge amount of anxiety about the future and what I’m going to do with myself, and my head’s a bit all over the place at the moment.
I thought I’d share a few of my memorable moments of first-time parenthood so far. I’ve used the word ‘alternative’ because they’re probably not the moments you might expect – baby’s first smile, baby learning to walk etc. Not those ones. These are probably a little more… silly. But sometimes it’s the silly little things that can make a significant difference to your life and how you feel about this crazy rollercoaster called parenting 🤪